Mama's the king

It takes a really long time for me to come up with a decision everytime. Each time before embarking on any decisions, I have to evaluate both the pros and cons. So after a really long time, I finally came up with my decision of going to HELP. My mum said no to journalism and mass communication. So I had to choose business. We even booked the air tickets yesterday.

Then, came night. My mum asked me to choose another college, AGAIN! She asked me to choose between Sunway and Monash. I'm like, what?! The air tickets have already been booked! She said, "Never mind. Just treat it as a vacation."

Now I'm really really torn between these two choices. Everything is almost similar as the location of both unis are quite near too each other. The courses, not much difference. The only thing different is the rankings and the cost. The joint degree with Lancaster University from Sunway, well, it ranks at 174 place. As for Monash, it ranks at the 48th place. Well, obviously, if it's based on this, I would want to go to Monash. But it's more expensive than the latter at a whooping RM10k. My mum said she doesn't mind, as long as I get quality education. But some part of me hesitate and says I should not burden my parents too much. I really feel guilty.

Oh well, it's the same old thing again. Nothing special. Looks like it's going to be a long journey again before i made my FINAL, and I hope this time, it would be a really FINAL, decision.

Anyway, forget education. I'm so tired of having to think about it again. I feel that I'm getting more and more deaf everyday. There was once during an oral test when I mistook "annual festival" for "animal festival". And the problem is, I heard the word "animal festival" for three times during the three times of reading! OMG! Then, there's another day when I asked my friend why he wouldn't want to go to KL for his studies. And he said, "The security there's not good. Furthermore, you think I'm very obedient ah?". And what I heard was this, "The security there's not good. Futhermore, you think I got no one million dollar ah?". And I thought he was boasting about how rich he was and that is why he would rather go overseas than go to KL for his studies. Sensing that something is not right, I "ha?" for a few times. And he answered me three times again and I heard the same thing again! Oh my gosh! What's happening to my ears?! I don't put headphones on my ears, I don't clean my ears regularly (for fear of damaging my ear drums) and I don't club. So why is this happening to me? Oh no! Please! I'm just 19! I still want to listen to Avril's songs! And I want to listen to gossips and 38 38 with others! OMG!